I really dunno wat to say...

it has been almost 2months here in Thailand, and i begin to start loving the life here.. de ppl de food and de life of coz.. so i m wondering if i can stay here forever.. but obviously i cant do that.. i still have my family back in SG, my friends and relatives of coz... therefore i m contented with my live and everything here during my time here... during SIP selection briefing, i thot tt goin overseas to work will be a good experience and everything has gone well so far.. i noe there are 1 or 2 ppl tinking y de heck did i choose OSIP when i can work in Singapore.. actually dere are many reasons to this.. other den reasons such as learning the experience to work in overseas, i m really sick of de life in SG even though there are friends around but i tink im too bothered by de things around me.. so i thot goin overseas will help me to get rid of this.. another reason is i felt my life has been turned upside down since de start of sem 2.1 which until de day i left for Thailand.. i jus wanna start afresh here... i dun1 to live in de shadow animore... i m sick and tired of this bcoz i realised i m jus wasting my time and its nt benefitting me at all.. i gave it all i could but i end up getting nth back.. i wish i can claim back everything but i noe its impossible and i felt very stupid.. i noe as soon as i come back, graduation will come soon after everything is done... so i always think whether things shld revert back to normal... it has always been in my mind but not until the moment i noe the truth... i realise it is not worth it... i dun deserve to do such things animore.. so things will never ever change... ever...